I was once told that good things happen to people that wait... all I ever do is wait.. and everytime I turn a corner something horrid is happening. On wednesday I am going to pic out the headstone for my mother... its almost been a year but I finally have the money for it... lately ... ive been nothing but a screwup. I dont know what to think anymore... I just hope I dont screw this up to. I miss my mom... I miss my dad... and I feel as if I didnt spend enough time with them. There are people close to me still here with me... and yet instead of spending time with them... Im just pushing them away because I have a thick skull... I wonder when I will learn.

Brunnen, den du informierst mich hast, daß, egal wie viel du versuchen, du nicht ändern kannst. Du wählst noch Freundschaft des Vaginaüberschusses sogar. Du claime, das du mit mir sprechen möchtest aber dann… sein, als ob ich nicht exsist, wenn sie dort ist. Ich bedeute, daß sein großes du jemand fandest, aber wenn du meine Tat des Freunds mindestens wie eine sein möchtest. Die Kugel ist in deinem Gericht.

... uggghhh Im trying to quit smoking again.... its day 4..... and no help yet from the patch. Just throught I would give an update letting people know im not dead... However.... not smoking is makeing me feel that way. Anyways Im downloading a game so.... off I go