.=Spirit Crusher=.

2007-12-29T21:35:00.000-08:00

When I say good bye... I mean it unless the other party says .... something... sooo Good bye.....

2007-12-24T16:47:00.000-08:00

You meet a guy... you think hes sweet... then hes a total ass!

2007-12-06T01:12:00.000-08:00

Geoff and John you guys are geeks!

Thinkin about ya always!

I hold on so nervously
To me and my drink
I wish it was cooling me
But so far, has not been good
It’s been shitty
And I feel awkward, as I should
This club has got to be
The most pretentious thing
Since I thought you and me
Well I am imagining
A dark lit place
Or your place or my place

Well I’m not paralyzed
But, I seem to be struck by you
I want to make you move
Because you’re standing still
If your body matches
What your eyes can do
You’ll probably move right through
Me on my way to you

I hold out for one more drink
Before I think
I’m looking too desperately
But so far has not been fun
I should just stay home
If one thing really means one
This club will hopefully
Be closed in three weeks
That would be cool with me
Well I’m still imagining
A dark lit place
Or your place or my place

I’m not paralyzed
But, I seem to be struck by you
I want to make you move
Because you’re standing still
If your body matches
What your eyes can do
You’ll probably move right through
Me on my way to you

We’ll I’m not paralyzed
But, I seem to be struck by you
I want to make you move
Because you’re standing still
If your body matches
What your eyes can do
You’ll probably move right through
Me on my way to you

2007-11-29T01:47:00.000-08:00

Tears Don't Fall Lyrics
Artist(Band):Bullet For My Valentine
Review The Song (115) Print the Lyrics

Lets go!

With blood shot eyes I watch you sleeping
The warmth I feel beside me is slowly fading
Would she hear me if I called her name?
Would she hold me if she knew my shame?

There's always something different going wrong
The path I walk's in the wrong direction
There's always someone fucking hanging on
Can anybody help me make things better?

Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home

The moments died, I hear no screaming
The visions left inside me are slowly fading
Would she hear me if I called her name?
Would she hold me if she knew my shame?

There's always something different going wrong
The path I walk's in the wrong direction
There's always someone fucking hanging on
Can anybody help me make things better?

Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home

Oh! Yeah!

This battered room I've seen before
The broken bones they heal no more, no more
With my last breath I'm choking
Will this ever end I'm hoping
My world is over one more time

Lets go

Would she hear me if i called her name?
Would she hold me, if she knew my shame?

There's always something to be going wrong
The path I walk's in the wrong direction
There's always someone fucking hanging on
Can anybody help me make things better?

Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall [tears don't fall]
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come...BETTER!

Your tears don't fall
They Crash around me
Her consience calls the guilty to come HOME!

2007-11-24T18:03:00.000-08:00

LMFAO! today was awesome! ... I was repricing items and I had a price tag on me... I didnt know... this hawt guy walks up to me and says " Are you for sale too? " Im just like... * giggle * "no..... oh wait! Tag!.... sorry". I was embarrassed... but yea fun. I like to work in this store... Especially right now being sence Im not waiting for anyone anymore. hah.... Katie was also picking on me.... I was asking her what I could help her with and she was like " what ever you want" and I just kinda went " I like it when people tell me what to do..... " >.> she took it the wrong way LOL! Anyways... I got oblivion yesterday.... so Im off to have fun with that... maybe some WoW later tonight who knows.. OHOH! and Auntie Cindy found me! I havent gotten to talk to her yet... weve been playing MSN tag... but one day! Im off for 3 days now so ... soon hehe.. ok Im off.... before Nick drives me nuts... Oblivion live yay

2007-11-22T23:14:00.000-08:00

O.O! OMFG there was some gooood eye candy at work today.... I love working where I do... I get to check out all the hawt bois... there was this one.. needed thread to fix his bag... we actually had a bit of a giggling match in the thread aisle...I wish I could ask for phone numbers when on shift lmao

But its all good... Im working on trying to get WoW up and running.. the login server is donw... no one knows for how long... and its sucks...My lungs burn....

Feist 1234

2007-11-17T22:50:00.000-08:00

One Two Three Four
Tell me that you love me more
Sleepless, long nights
That was what my youth was for

OLD teenage hopes are ALIVE at your door
Left you with nothing
But they want some more

Oh, oh, oh
You're changing your heart
Oh, oh, oh
You know who you are

Sweetheart, bitter heart
Now I can't tell you apart
Cozy and cold
Put the horse before the cart

Those teenage hopes
Who have tears in their eyes
Too scared to own up
To one little lie

Oh, oh, oh
You're changing your heart
Oh, oh, oh
You know who you are

One, two, three, four, five, six, nine, and ten
Money can't buy you back the love that you had then
One, two, three, four, five, six, nine, and ten
Money can't buy you back the love that you had then

Oh, oh, oh
You're changing your heart
Oh, oh, oh
You know who you are
Oh, oh, oh
You're changing your heart
Oh, oh, oh
You know who you are

2007-11-13T17:23:00.001-08:00

All I have to say is I am in soo much pain.

Free as a bird

2007-11-10T18:34:00.000-08:00

Hey.... hie... Um ye anot much going on.... Everything was really busy at work today. good music on... unfortunatly All of it reminded me of someone >.< Oh and I saw Aprils parents today... that was cool. Waiting for next weeks shifts.. Im gunna get my licence because when I went to see colin .... Um I had a hard time getting in to see him with an expired licence... so I am going for it so I can see him easier... Oh and um... karlisle bought me a present today >.> Which is very shocking he said it was just cuz... I donk know why... it is a twilight princess shirt and I love it... but ... he is not obligated so I dont know whats going on there... god Im so confused. And monday is dads birthday.... So I might not be around ... I dont know what Im going to do I just hope I can find a friend.

Anyways I leave you with these lyrics.

Magic Man Lyrics
Artist(Band):Heart

Cold late night so long ago
When I was not so strong you know
A pretty man came to me
Never seen eyes so blue
You know I could not run away
It seemed we'd seen each other in a dream
It seemed like he knew me
He looked right through me, yeah
"Come on home, girl" he said with a smile
"You don't have to love me and
Let's get high awhile
But try to understand
Try to understand
Try try try to understand
I'm a magic man."

Winter nights we sang in tune
Played inside the months of moon
Never think of never
Let this spell last forever
Summer lover passed to fall
Tried to realize it all
Mama says she's worried
Growing up in a hurry, yeah
"Come on home, girl" mama cried on the phone
"Too soon to lose my baby and my girl should be at home!"
"But try to understand, try to understand
Try try try to understand
He's a magic man, mama, ah ...
He's a magic man"

"Come on home, girl" he said with a smile
"I cast my spell of love on you, a woman from a child!
But try to understand, try to understand, oh ... oh ...
Try to understand
Try try try to understand
He's a magic man!" oh yeah
Oh, you've got the magic hands

"Come on home, girl" he said with a smile
"You don't have to love me and
Let's get high awhile
But try to understand
Try to understand
Try try try to understand
He's a magic man." yeah ... oh ...

2007-11-08T11:54:00.000-08:00

OMFG what a week.... Yesterday at work I feel off the ladder doing overstock.... so I got to go home early... which was cool but Im in pain and have to work today at 130... I also woke up this morning to find out one of my BESt friends is back in jail >.< so Now I have to go to langly. His mom is going to give me all the details. I might go tomorrow depending on if I can get a hotel and what not. and if I can borrow the money --.-- God damn it colin. Anyways ... off to work

2007-11-06T10:32:00.000-08:00

So I have now gotten the site up and running for my Guild on WoW... Its a fun game but I know to take it in moderation. Ive been working alot lately... got a Job at Michaels and they are sceduling me alot... Which is a good thing. Got an xbox 360 from a friend ^.^ He knows I luv him. And yea... my life so far. yay

2007-11-01T23:12:00.000-07:00

Im glad you found you way.... I had alot more I wanted to say... but whats the point.

2007-10-24T18:54:00.001-07:00

What the fuck am I to you just some stupid little toy you can bounce around over and over and over again... I cant believe I love you... I cant believe I let you... I cant believe I forgave you! FUCK YOU. If I were to see you face to face right now I dont think I would have a problem hurting you phsically as much as you have hurt me emotionally.... I dont think you really understood how fragile my heart was or how much I love you..... and how much youve broke me. and yet.... I would probably take you back as a friend because I cant stand to lose you altho I fear I might have permanitly lost you. I dont know what to do any more....

Was ich euch geliebt muss loslassen

Ich liebe dich ... Lassen Sie mich nicht verlieren Sie

GARBAGE LYRICS why doyou love me?

2007-10-20T01:26:00.000-07:00

I'm no barbie doll
I'm not your baby girl
I've done ugly things and I have made mistakes
And I am not as pretty as those girls in magazines
I am rotten to my core if they're to be believed
So what if I'm no baby bird hanging upon your every word?
Nothing ever smells of roses that rises out of mud

Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me

You're not some baby boy
Why you acting so surprised
You're sick of all the rules
Well I'm sick of all your lies
Now I've held back a wealth of shit, I think I'm gonna choke
I'm standing in the shadows with the words stuck in my throat
Does it really come as a surprise when I tell you I don't feel good?
Nothing ever came from nothing man
Oh man, ain't that the truth

Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it, I do it again

I think you're sleeping with a friend of mine
I have no proof but I think that I'm right
And you've still got the most beautiful face
It just makes me sad most of the time

I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it, I do it again
Do it again
Do it again
Do it again

Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me

2007-10-19T02:29:00.000-07:00

Fuck I really fucked up by leaving msn open.... am I ever glad I have colin to talk to... I dont know what to do. Maybe Ill go spend a few days with colin and see whats up.

2007-10-16T20:10:00.000-07:00

Have you ever done something stupid....

someone just started talking to me again...
and for some reason... I cant be rude to him.
altho Im sure if I dont be... somthing bad is going to happen...
--.-- I just dont know what to do Ive asked nicely for him to go.
anyways Im going to get some sleep

2007-10-05T21:58:00.000-07:00

when does life change.... seems like who I though was my bestfriend ...doesnt want anything to do with me any more.... and I swear to god there so many other things wrong... I cant even explain them here...

2007-07-24T02:26:00.000-07:00

I was once told that good things happen to people that wait... all I ever do is wait.. and everytime I turn a corner something horrid is happening. On wednesday I am going to pic out the headstone for my mother... its almost been a year but I finally have the money for it... lately ... ive been nothing but a screwup. I dont know what to think anymore... I just hope I dont screw this up to. I miss my mom... I miss my dad... and I feel as if I didnt spend enough time with them. There are people close to me still here with me... and yet instead of spending time with them... Im just pushing them away because I have a thick skull... I wonder when I will learn.

2007-07-19T06:37:00.000-07:00

Brunnen, den du informierst mich hast, daß, egal wie viel du versuchen, du nicht ändern kannst. Du wählst noch Freundschaft des Vaginaüberschusses sogar. Du claime, das du mit mir sprechen möchtest aber dann… sein, als ob ich nicht exsist, wenn sie dort ist. Ich bedeute, daß sein großes du jemand fandest, aber wenn du meine Tat des Freunds mindestens wie eine sein möchtest. Die Kugel ist in deinem Gericht.

2007-07-10T22:58:00.000-07:00

... uggghhh Im trying to quit smoking again.... its day 4..... and no help yet from the patch. Just throught I would give an update letting people know im not dead... However.... not smoking is makeing me feel that way. Anyways Im downloading a game so.... off I go

2007-06-26T11:16:00.000-07:00

well.... I had to quit my job... the owner sold the hotel and the new boss didnt like me so instead of letting him fire me I quit. *shrug* Ill find another one. In the meantime Its my bday... Im 22 now.... Im old. Karlisle and I have figured stuff out. Apparently I was missing my pills... and nit picking at everything. Im fine now that Ive been takeing them again. Im babysitting for my sister right now... Jordan is soo cute... hes crawling now and getting into everything. he likes buttons. Anyways I need a smoke. Ttyl

2007-06-10T18:14:00.000-07:00

grahhhh. karlisle has a great fucken way of pissing me off on my days off. Im starting to think its his way of punishing me for going back to work. Every day I have off he makes me feel like a tiny little nothing. Maybe he doesnt even know what hes doing but Ive tried to talk to him and it fucken hurts when he does it. Im even questioning if he wants to be with me or if this is his way to push me away so he doesnt have to do a breakup. Im writing this is here because im sick of holding it in and I have no close friends to talk to anymore. maybe its me just seeing eveything wrong... maybe its my fault...maybe its time I just stop.

2007-06-03T10:43:00.000-07:00

I am sitting here screaming....
I am wanting what I cant have...

2007-05-29T09:14:00.000-07:00

*sigh* Im here again.... its supposed to be my day off but my boss is trying to call me in... I work 7 days a week and have only had one day off since I started. And its wearing on me. He tells me I can have a day off then tries to take it away... I just need sleep. Happy late bday Matty. This job is also wearing on Karlisle and my relationship. Which is not good... Im wondering if this is what Im supposed to be doing... *big sigh* plus I was supposed to hang out with april lastnight but I was to tired from work. Not only work but Amanda is driving me insane with everything. She wants to be with me like 24/7. I need to run away. Far ... far AWAY. Help.

2007-05-24T08:56:00.000-07:00

so this job is very active but is easy..... I like the house and pay. and the boss is very nice. I need to take my cat to the vet i think... Im not sure... I dont know what to type Im so tired... I dont even know why Im up but yea theres my update. plus today is moms bday.....

2007-05-18T09:25:00.000-07:00

Ive got a jobbbbb.... Ive got a job..... its a Chamber Maid job... but its still a job its 10 bucks an hour and 4 hours a day and I start tomorrow. YAY I dont know why but I finally feel ready to go back to work at this job.......

2007-05-09T01:24:00.000-07:00

... so May 11th is commin up this friday... I think Im still going to van but Im not sure. I hope so. Im worried my ID wont be accepted at the commodore... I hope the 5 hour drive is worth it and I can get in... if not I have to sit in van for like 3 hours. *thumbs down*... Matt where have you been?!? I wanna visit if I can... try to get ahold of me by friday...

2007-04-16T21:42:00.000-07:00

... sorry i havent updated lately.... ive.... been.... off in another world .... found out that dimmu borger is playing at the comodor in van on may 11... im totally going... im excited , also been finnally working on moving moms things into my house... I feel I can finally deal with having them mentally.so thts my life right now.... its not great but ill take it. :P

2007-04-04T22:25:00.000-07:00

oh my fucen god... I am so sick of feeling like im going to puke! Dr Mabee says its a virus.... but how long done a virus really last?? all ive been doing is sleeping.... to avoid the feeling of being ill.... Im not pregnant so thats not it.... I am on antibiotics .... i dont know... fuck

2007-04-01T13:07:00.001-07:00

V: Not judgmental
I: loves to laugh
R: great girlfriend
G: Never let people tell you what to do.
I: loves to laugh
N: One of the best damn gf anyone could ask for
I: loves to laugh
A: Gorgeous

OR

D: Has one of the best personalities ever
O: Is a freak in bed.
L: REALLY easy to fall in love with
L: REALLY easy to fall in love with
Y: Loved by everybody

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

A: Gorgeous
B: Loves people
C: BEST SMiLE
D: Has one of the best personalities ever
E: Freakin beautiful
F: People wild and crazy adore you.
G: Never let people tell you what to do.
H: Easy to fall in love with
K: Really silly.
I: loves to laugh
J: Freaking Rowdy
K: Really silly.
L: REALLY easy to fall in love with
M: makes dating fun
N: One of the best damn bf/gf anyone could ask for
O: Is a freak in bed.
P: Popular with all types of people.
Q: A hypocrite.
R: great girlfriend/boyfriend
S: Lives life for fun
T: GREAT kisser
U: Gets blamed for everything
V: Not judgmental
W: Very broad minded.
X: Never let people tell you what to do.
Y: Loved by everybody
Z: Lives life for fun

2007-03-27T14:15:00.000-07:00

just letting you know the pic page has been updated... ill get the ones of the fish soon im just haveing problems with my tank....

2007-03-25T12:50:00.000-07:00

--.-- my pico died.... I hate this,,,

2007-03-24T18:12:00.000-07:00

oh my good god... what in the fucken hell.... you were a fucken nob in highschool and now... you wanna be friends... I thought I made it clear that I fucken hate you. So did April.... and now your inviting us to a party at your place when we havent talked in like 7 years.... like nothing happened... whats wrong with you? Are you on drugs?! did you finally snap??? or is this for revenge because we stopped talkin to you? I dont know what your up to.... but I dont know if I can trust it either...

2007-03-21T06:34:00.000-07:00

Puss n' Boots...
Omg Im up early.... I was enjoying my last sleep in my old bed... I was sooo comfie... when in comes this cat. I mean seriously... the first few times it was cute because she would pretend to be asleep... but the last time... omg she wouldnt leave me alone! Apparently I forgot to fill her food dish before I went to sleep. Im feeding her tuna right now because of the cat food scare. Well.... I couldnt reach the cat food so I thought I would try to get back to sleep... forget it... I had to wake karlisle up to get the tuna... and she had just aten before I went to bed. . so here I am 6:30 in the morning I went to bed at 1:00 and have a new bed comming at 10:00 shes probably thinking "hahaha I got my way hehe now you can sleep" I swear Im going to lock her outside at night from now on......

2007-03-16T19:47:00.000-07:00

well... I quit smoking... going to vernon tomorrow for the fish and game club banquet.... should be fun... I got the camero back on the road... mmm my baby... got her a new deck its a blaupunkr from germany... better then the alpine one I was going to get... also got her some seat covers.... and other things... lights, steering wheel cover etc... I also got a new fish tank... that makes 4 in total now... Ill have pics of all this up soon... I also want to get some of the banquet first...

I dont know what your thinking... you know who you are... Ill give you untill monday.

2007-03-14T14:11:00.000-07:00

I cant believe you.... I cant believe your so selfish ... and your doing exactly what you used to do all over again even after you appoligized for it. Am I to forgive you again after you made me worry .... am I to think everything is alright when I know your suffering? Or am I to think your DEAD and Im sorry but I talked to your mother to make sure you were ok.... You should be happy you have a family still, happy to have parents to talk to .... parents to love... parents to hug and laugh with. Because when there gone... your going to wish you would have done thoes things.... I know mine are gone and I did thoes things but I still wish I could do them again. I dont Care what happened in the past with your mom you should STILL if anything talk to your mother... also you should not be inscure you are a very hansom boy and at some time in your life... a girl is going to be lucky and swoop you up and give you the attention you need... but untill then you needs to concintrate on yourself! As my dad used to say

you need to look out for Number 1 and to yourself your number 1.

Ive been right in the past.... please listen now... before you do die....

avril lavigne Girlfriend

2007-03-10T14:21:00.000-08:00

Hey, hey, you, you
I don't like your girlfriend
No way, no way
I think you need a new one
Hey, hey, you, you
I could be your girlfriend

Hey, hey, you, you
I know that you like me
No way, no way
No, it's not a secret
Hey, hey, you, you
I want to be your girlfriend

You're so fine I want you mine you're so delicious
I think about you all the time you're so addictive
Don't you know what I can do to make you feel alright (Alright...)

Don't pretend I think you know I'm damn precious
And hell yeah, I'm the mother fucking princess
I can tell you like me too and you know I'm right (I'm right...)

She's like so whatever
You could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that's what everyone's talking about

Hey, hey, you, you
I don't like your girlfriend
No way, no way
I think you need a new one
Hey, hey, you, you
I could be your girlfriend

Hey, hey, you, you
I know that you like me
No way, no way
No, it's not a secret
Hey, hey, you, you
I want to be your girlfriend

I can see the way, I see the way you look at me
And even when you look away I know you think of me
I know you talk about me all the time again and again (Again and again...)

So come over here and tell me what I wanna hear
Better, yet, make your girlfriend disappear
I don't wanna hear you say her name ever again (And again...)

Because...

She's like so whatever
And she could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that's what everyone's talking about

Hey, hey, you, you
I don't like your girlfriend
No way, no way
I think you need a new one
Hey, hey, you, you
I could be your girlfriend

Hey, hey, you, you
I know that you like me
No way, no way
No, it's not a secret
Hey, hey, you, you
I want to be your girlfriend

(Uh)
In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger
'Cause I can, 'cause I can do it better
There's no other, so when's it gonna sink in
She's so stupid, what the hell were you thinking?

Hey, hey, you, you (Hey)
I don't like your girlfriend (Yes)
No way, no way (No way)
I think you need a new one
Hey, hey, you, you (No way)
I could be your girlfriend (No way)

(No way, no way)

Hey, hey, you, you (Hey)
I know that you like me
No way, no way
No, it's not a secret (No way)
Hey, hey, you, you (No way)
I want to be your girlfriend
(No way, no way)

Hey, hey!

feist- when I was a young girl

2007-03-02T21:50:00.000-08:00

When I was a young girl I used to seek pleasure
When I was a young girl I used to drink ale
Out of the ale house down into the jail house
My body's salvating and hell is my doom

Come mama come papa and sit you down by me
Come sit you down by me and pity my case
My poor head is achin' my sad heart is breakin'
My body's salvating and hell is my doom

Please send for the preacher to come and pray for me
And send for the doctor to heal all my wounds
My poor head is achin' my sad heart is breakin'
My body's salvating and I'm bound to die

One morning one morning one morning in May
I saw this young lady all wrapped in white linen
All wrapped in white linen and call out the plague

2007-02-11T18:21:00.000-08:00

clicky clicky

btw Ill be uploading random pics to this page thanx

2007-02-09T08:21:00.000-08:00

im obsessed with this one song right now... I cant get it outta my head.... anyways I went out with April Amber and Jen last night omg it was great... so fun...

whenever Im alone or baked... I cant stop thinking of this one .... person place... thing...
drew an awesome pic lastnight... amber has it shes going to make a copy for me....this is basicully rambling because its 8 30 am and im never up this early....anyways im going to search myspace for someone Adios

2007-02-07T18:33:00.000-08:00

jeasus christ!!!!! GAAAAAHHHHH fucken people are inconciderate! some Asshole kid thought it would be funny to open a moldy coffee mug and stick it under my nose while I was inhaling. now I have a headach... on the upside I got a cute little tea pot that I love for a buck. mmm Chi tea the only way to cal down when you have no pot.... or alcohol... I wanna get drunk....anyways Im going to eat and listen to think about you by guns and roses ! bleeh!

dork?

2007-02-05T02:33:00.000-08:00

Clicky Clicky

2007-02-04T14:01:00.001-08:00

so close to me..
I can touch your hands..
anticipation...
I look in your eyes
and you smile at me
anticipation...
that knowing look
excited stare
anticipation...
for you to take me there..
to take me to that place
anticipation...
a velvet kiss
an electrifying touch
anticipation...

2007-01-31T18:55:00.000-08:00

I got a rose made outta feathers today.. its really neat.... *sigh*

"I saw you in your wedding gown
The prettiest dress
I came into your room that night
And made such a mess
In my own way, I lovingly kiss the bride
With your ring in your hand
Your eyes and your mouth open wide

In my eyes
Blood drops look like roses on white lace
They won't wash away
In my mind they're roses on white lace
Straight from the heart
So dead upon the bed

You hurt me in the deepest way
I'm crippled inside
I took your evil skin away
It's all cut and dried
I saw you tonight and carefully took your hand
With some smears on my cheeks
I knew that you'd understand

In my eyes
Blood drops look like roses on white lace
They won't wash away
In my mind they're roses on white lace
Straight from the heart
So dead upon the bed, still searching for your head

They're never gonna find your face
It's hidden away
I found a very special place where you used to play
In my own way, I lovingly kiss the bride
With your ring in your hand
Your heart and your mouth open wide

In my eyes
Blood drops look like roses on white lace
They won't wash away
In my mind they're roses on white lace
Straight from the heart
Blood drops look like roses on white lace
Crimson and sweet, stained on the sheet
Roses on white lace, pretty in red, dripping and wet
Roses on white lace, spilled on the walls, dark in the hall"

...miss you.....

2007-01-30T12:41:00.000-08:00

I got a new hair cut ^.^ and new peircings yay

2007-01-13T13:50:00.000-08:00

*growls* I fucken fell on ice and my hooka is broken >.< ! Fuck....... no Shisha for the ginnie......-.- What a beautiful day ...*rolls eyes*

2007-01-10T04:06:00.000-08:00

all I have to say is........ meh ......meh meh meh!

2007-01-08T00:57:00.000-08:00

my toes are cold.... and Im worth a dot...."i live in my own little world but it's okay everyone knows me there"

karlisle said it would be a bad day.

2007-01-07T18:40:00.000-08:00

soooo my nephew Jordan was baptised today... im his godmother.... *smiles* he was sooo cute he slept throught the whole thing. Amanda drove me nuts.... trying to bum smokes... I just wanna relax and hit the wata.....>.> I swear.. I just wanted to kill my sister today >.< *shrugsd* but thats what sisters are for I guess... now.... Im going to draw my cousin angelica and then some of my fav nintendo characters hittin a hooka... oh and I didnt get my wii I got a game cube instead.....

2007-01-04T23:44:00.000-08:00

so whats new... hmmm lets see.... Im still alive... I still smoke... and I still drink.... bought somethin precious today.. if you wanna know what it is you can ask.... and if your privlaged I will tell you I really dont know what to type... I think Im going to download aol...... yep

see ya

2006-12-26T23:38:00.000-08:00

home one more time.... what fun.... xmas sucks... miss matt..... might get a wii tomorrow.... *shrugs*

2006-12-24T11:21:00.000-08:00

merry xmas

.=*Spirit Crusher*=.