What the fuck am I to you just some stupid little toy you can bounce around over and over and over again... I cant believe I love you... I cant believe I let you... I cant believe I forgave you! FUCK YOU. If I were to see you face to face right now I dont think I would have a problem hurting you phsically as much as you have hurt me emotionally.... I dont think you really understood how fragile my heart was or how much I love you..... and how much youve broke me. and yet.... I would probably take you back as a friend because I cant stand to lose you altho I fear I might have permanitly lost you. I dont know what to do any more....

Was ich euch geliebt muss loslassen

Ich liebe dich ... Lassen Sie mich nicht verlieren Sie

GARBAGE LYRICS why doyou love me?

I'm no barbie doll
I'm not your baby girl
I've done ugly things and I have made mistakes
And I am not as pretty as those girls in magazines
I am rotten to my core if they're to be believed
So what if I'm no baby bird hanging upon your every word?
Nothing ever smells of roses that rises out of mud

Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me

You're not some baby boy
Why you acting so surprised
You're sick of all the rules
Well I'm sick of all your lies
Now I've held back a wealth of shit, I think I'm gonna choke
I'm standing in the shadows with the words stuck in my throat
Does it really come as a surprise when I tell you I don't feel good?
Nothing ever came from nothing man
Oh man, ain't that the truth

Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it, I do it again

I think you're sleeping with a friend of mine
I have no proof but I think that I'm right
And you've still got the most beautiful face
It just makes me sad most of the time

I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it, I do it again
Do it again
Do it again
Do it again

Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me

Fuck I really fucked up by leaving msn open.... am I ever glad I have colin to talk to... I dont know what to do. Maybe Ill go spend a few days with colin and see whats up.

Have you ever done something stupid....

someone just started talking to me again...
and for some reason... I cant be rude to him.
altho Im sure if I dont be... somthing bad is going to happen...
--.-- I just dont know what to do Ive asked nicely for him to go.
anyways Im going to get some sleep

when does life change.... seems like who I though was my bestfriend ...doesnt want anything to do with me any more.... and I swear to god there so many other things wrong... I cant even explain them here...